NAKAKAMATAY ANG BULLYING AT DAPAT ITIGIL ITO!

Everyday it seems like a dark clouds surrounds me. It started when i diagnosed with the disease that really affects me, my whole life and even my family. Its been so hard for me to trust people and sometimes i hate my honesty. I hope that i lied at the very beginning and nobody will stare at me as if i am a monster and talked back about me.

During my depression i don't know where to go but God is only my strength and i talked to Him always. I lost my confident to everyone including myself. I try to conceal my feelings and i want to disappear to a place that no one knows. Some people don't bully a person verbally but intelligently i can guess through their action and action is louder than words.

I am bullied everyday, and I cry almost every night not wanting to go out next morning. family gathering are the worst. You have the whole weekend without bullies and all these meanpeople, and then family gathering comes, and I cry longer than I do on weeknights. Being bullied by the family is enough, but I always the topic of people when i passed by. The only reason I am being bullied and being disrespected is because of a disease common with me. I really am not trying to be rude on this, but people understand what I am taking through. But every time I try to have time by myself, they always thinks that I am not deserve to be their friends with them again and they starts insulting me. It's too much to handle. I need to stand up for my self once and for all if i can get the courage.

After being called disgusting, a whore, a slut, nasty, and etc. ALL DAY, EVERYDAY. You start to think that of yourself too. You say to yourself "I AM worthless. Nobody cares about me. Maybe I should just kill myself, so I won't have to suffer anymore." I’m still getting bullied, every day. But every day it's someone different. I'm becoming weak, and I'm not sure what to do.

I just wanted to share this because bullying is no joke and you'll never know how I feel until you've experienced it for yourself! I WANNA RAISE AWARENESS and i want to start in community!